I'm Not Pregnant

Fortunately and unfortunately I started last night. Never before had this monthly event carried so much emotion. I realized that never again will I share the unbelievable experience of bringing life into the world with Beth. I didn't know how much this would affect me, but I couldn't help but cry. There are no guarantees in life. Even if we were able to does not mean that we would have any more children. But I made the mistake of looking at some baby magazines I got for my expectant co-worker. I skipped my cycle for almost two months, which is not that unusual for me, but I began to wonder and grow keen to the idea of having another child. I knew that this was my last opportunity to experience having Beth's child growing inside of me. So I guess the decision is now out of my hands for good. I am so lucky that in our situation we have been blessed with two little miracles and we cherish them more than they'll ever know.