Victorious

She did it! Beth has finally accomplished the goal she set out to reach for many years. All the anxiety building for the both of us has now come to pass. Her dreams are coming true and I am fortunate enough to stand beside her. The night prior to and the morning of the procedure my nerves were coming unglued. It was not until the clock started ticking closer to surgery time that Beth's anxiety was apparent . I on the other hand was not able to sleep for a week. Suddenly as she was saying goodbye to the kids and I her emotions were more evident. I could tell she was nervous and excited. I realized how I too was eager for this to happen. I wanted her to find her happiness and in doing so I bringing more peace and stability to our home. From the time she left to the short time in which she came back through the door I was calmly freaking out. I was wishing more than anything that I could be in that office holding her hand. Instead I was stuck in the hotel room in a city and state I've never visited, trying to convince my children that nothing was wrong. I was so nervous and overwhelmed I was actually shaking. Finally all my stress melted away as relief poured over me when Beth successfully stitched came through the door. Everything finally done flooded her with emotions. To my surprise she broke down. But it was all okay because we were together again. Finally free to live our life together without this one nagging procedure looming over us. I have noticed a small hormone shift. She has had a few moments of sensitivity. All the things I was fearful of have gone out the window. We had a great vacation and have had a wonderful time being together and celebrating our eight year anniversary. She was a bit too sore to run up the Rocky steps, but she is victorious. If only everyone was so brave to follow their dreams and live their lives to the fullest in spite of the doubts of others.