Laser Electrology

Zappo! Today's another milestone in our exciting and long journey of transition. Beth goes today for her first laser electrology appointment. I'm not nervous and I'm not anxious. I'm really kind of excited for her. I just hope it doesn't hurt. What used to seem like a big deal has become another mundane step in the process. Last night she asked if I was kissing on her face as a farewell to the beard. Honestly the thought had not even crossed my mind. I think I have just become so desensitized about the whole thing. Now it's just a normal part of our lives. What's kind of weird is that almost nine years ago this would have freaked me out. Any thought of a step forward in the process brought on a fight and an internal freak out. I'm all for it now.
I used think that the money spent on the transition was a selfish waste. It is definitely not cheap, that's for sure. Ironically now I would have paid double for Beth to give this treatment a try, even with no guarantee. Funny thing is , I was willing to spend more than she was. I will support anything we can do to help her feel more secure. I mean who wants to be self conscious all the time? Plus I'm tired of her obsession with foundation. There's no doubt I wish things were cheaper and that the outside world was less judgemental. Free from judgement we could just get up and go without worrying about the beard and the suspicious looks after 5 o'clock.
However, I feel 100% secure. 100% sure that there is no one else for me and that now at this point this issue no longer determines our relationship status. There are no thoughts of ultimatums or second guessing myself. No more letting others place doubt in my mind and arguing with myself that whole head over heart thing. Besides dealing with our children and their social settings now, our life with this issue is really no issue. This has been the most incredible journey thus far and I wouldn't trade it for the world. We are literally one of the best couples I know. We've beat all the odds. I really just wish people would not make such a big deal out of differences.
The judgements and stigmas from the outside makes it harder for us who choose to stay with and support our partners to listen to our own hearts. I've always loved Beth and there would have never been doubts if the words and attitudes of outsiders wouldn't have made it such a big deal. Thankfully I've grown (no fat jokes here) enough to make and stand by my own decisions and place things into perspective. Is Beth spoiled? I hope so because she sure spoils me too. Good luck baby!